But acty, i'm nervous. nervous, for thurs. VJCSB syf. Where i get to skip lessons. yes. but it's reli nerve-wrecking. It's whether gwh, or anything below that. Whether we can keep up the standard, or fall... 

I may not be playing for it, but doesn't mean I don't feel for the band. I do, and i always will. I'm part of the band, and no matter what happens, I'm part of it. 

Jiayous ppl! 

And on another note, i reli dno what to do. I'm stuck. Move forward? No energy. Turn around and look behind? Can't bear to. Stay where I am? 

Maybe. 

Maybe not.