few days back i looked at our ip3 and ip4 snrs blogs. their posts are old. srsly old. like last posted in 2007. but could see they were reli bonded too. i wonder how my class, or my whole batch for that matter, will turn out to be when we go on to IP3/JC1. still as bonded? no idea...

tune-in ytd. haha band room was suddenly so squeezy once again! with all the sec fours around, i kinda miss the space u have around you. especially when u r the only eupho player around. sitting beside one tubist. and the horn sl. yea that space... oh well. back to the old times like when the j2s were around. SQUEEZE!!! 

i came into band this jan. the youngest of all. srsly youngest. the only IP1... i saw my ip2 snrs. was close to umar chris louise. den followed by my vs j1 seniors. wasn't really close to the other snrs from other schools at first. well, that would mean there was a reli big gap between me and the j2s. as the weeks of band pracs gone by, i got closer to my 3 eupho j2s (daniel shikang fahjin)

and my ip3 snr lemuel. oh i oso have 4 ip4 snrs. charissa eugene xinhui beatrice. close to kangrong yusheng and others too... missed the ny trip this yr. shudn't have missed it at all. didn't learn anything in school that week... after that trip, nxt big event being majestia... i rmb i was reli anxious that day. left lessons at around 11? i tink so... went to band room and saw everyone busy writing cards. haha i was acty surprised that some j2s acty wrote for me la!!! see band damn bonded!!! majestia rocked, ESPLANADE!!! oh well that was like 6 months ago... after that was handover. den started studying in term 3 and 4. came back for college day, den followed by studying again. den open house. and finally, till ytd's tune-in. one year down like this in band. it's reli fast... 

soon after majestia, i talked to charissa in the band room. she said she nearly cried on stage on night of majestia. true, after 4 years in band, it's reli hard to leave. she said band room looks really diff now and 4 yrs back. she had fun seniors. so do i. haha and i rmb clearly that she missed those days very much... so did eugene. he was very down the night before majestia, when we were having debriefing after band prac... 4 years in vjc, 4 years in vjcsb....

after tune-in ytd the whole j1 batch plus some vs and tkgs sec 4s, we went to kfc for dinner. had loads of fun. all the jokes about gabriel, joel, weijian, umar, these guys reli brought fun laughter joy into my bandlife. den went home with lemuel, and we started talking about ip and band...

he said he misses ip. like the whole class getting scolded tgt, having fun tgt, doing everything tgt, within the room called T32. going rar rar all the time, it's reli wad being a viper is all abt. and we touched on the topic of 'the 06v12 graffiti'... he said the whole class of 06v12 expected us (08v12) to like remove the whole graffiti, but not within like a week... it was kinda fast and furious kinda thing... 

following that we talked about band... 2 years back when he was ip1, he said he was very unfamiliar to everything around him. he couldn't find any topic to talk to snrs.. cos they would always be talking about their jc life/ subjects, and he said they would expect him to understand/comprehend what in the world they would be talking about. reason being? "u're an IP kid!" and so he wasn't that close at that time... but still he said coming ip gets u being more matured and independent. but to me, it seems that an ip kid who is in a cca whereby he or she is the only one from the whole batch, this is the way that ip kid reli gets matured and independent. learning how to stand on his own. learning how to make decisions on his own, learning when to ask for help, learning when to do things on ur own... it reli drills u into a person who reli depends on himself... well back to the topic between me and lemuel, we touched on syf and how leaving our batch behind to come ip feels... like me, he was the only one from his batch to come into vip. like him, i will not be able to go thru all the hardship with my batch just to prepare for a concert, or syf. and both of us do feel bad about it. last yr's vs syf, he did not go to SCH to see how vs actually performed. when i asked him how come shikang and edwin and the rest did go back, he said they skipped school. and yes in ip, u cannot pon school. a cohort of 4 classes, and u do not go sch. teachers would obviously know. but that's the thing. u can't go back to join ur batch. it's like their LAST major event, and u can't be with them. not on stage. and not even sitted there as an audience to see how they perform. none of these. well then where are you? IN SCHOOL, HAVING LESSONS! how does it feel? BAD! feel sorry? YES! what can you do about it then? NOTHING! 

these questions would most likely have gone thru his mind last yr. and they will go thru mine nxt yr. wad's worst is that, I CAN'T GO FOR SYF! WHY? IP PPL AREN'T ALLOWED! WHY SO? NO IDEA! ANY REASON FROM THOSE WHO SAID 'IP PPL AREN'T ALLOWED'? NONE AT ALL! WHY SO? NO IDEA ONCE AGAIN! 

came back home last night. thinking about what lemuel and i have talked about. 06v12. 08v12. T32. Vjcsb. IP1, IP2, IP3, IP4. JC1, JC2. Bandlife. School life. SYF. Feeling sorry for almost everything. so what can i do? Live with it.