if i reli say the f word like free, now would be the time, BUT NO! i shan't stoop to such levels just to let my anger out. if thr were same way i could express my anger, i would have done it long ago. freak!

maybe i should have just promised luqman and stayed on in vs. then i won't be facing all this shit all by myself. 

maybe i should just walk by the beach now. with my eupho in my hand, playing all the different concertos which adequately express how i freaking feel right now. and when i finally feel sick of this whole world, i can just drown in the beach with my eupho. at least i know i can trust my instrument, and that's like the only thing i reli trust right now.